I can’t explain how great this is to me. After nearly fifteen years or even more precisely after nearly fifty years of struggling, I am finally publishing my book. I now know that I never again can be as poorly as I was up until the point when I was admitted to the hospital.
In the aftermath, I know that the day I needed to realize that I was not fit for work, whatsoever, was the worse day in my life. From that day, it all slowly fell apart around me, as well as inside of me.
Because of this, it feels even more fantastic to finally be able to contribute with something, to be part of the society, and through this, to be a fellow human being.
Dear fellow survivor, I must advise you not to read this book unless it is under close supervision by your therapist. When I myself was at my worse, I was not capable to read any book at all and definitely not a book like this. Actually, my only need for a very long period would be to sit on a sturdy and reassuring granny’s lap. In addition, I must admit that still today, I’m reluctant to learn about other patients’ stories. I’m afraid I’ll get even more confused because I still have some large gaps in my memory. Please also bear in mind this book contains paintings, which also can activate unexpected and unwanted stress reactions. If you choose to open this book, please promise me that you’ll close it and put it away if you feel the slightest distress viewing my paintings or reading my text. I do not want to cause you any more pain!
I am not a doctor, therapist, or a member of healthcare. This is my own story and as the reader, you choose to read this and to make your own opinion about whether this might help you.
TUSSILA’S BOOK I is available for free at Smashwords until January 10, 2016. Please klick the link below, and get your free copy!
What now, Tussila? Now that it is done, and the book finally is published? You want to paint, you say. Yes, we will paint; we will prepare for you to make collages, for real collages and not only digital, perhaps. It can be difficult to work online for a while; I know that. It is maybe better to set up a worktable for your new acrylic paint, your tissues, wallpapers, and found objects. This book project, it is a bit too exciting, don’t you think? It is all right to step back for a while now, at least over the Christmas Holidays. We’ll just log out of this computer as soon as this final post is published, as we planned for. Tomorrow, we’ll pack up the car, with the puppy and a nice mixture of toys and nice outfits. Of course, we’ll bring outdoor clothing as well, before we hurry to Morgan for the Holidays. It will be interesting to see how soon we dare to start the computer again…
Until then, dear friends and followers, I wish you the best Christmas possible!!!
Big hug from Tussila (and me)… ;-)